Some Space for Sasha and Best Wishes

[rokkerr]

Sasha has posted on her twitter some news in regards to going to rehab. Vicky & I do not know much other than what was posted on her twitter. It is a personal issue and we respect that unless she chooses to divulge more.

We are supportive of Sasha in this time of difficulty and hope that she gets everything together. We are taking the liberty of taking the burdens of posting on the board less and putting her a bit further down. Do not read anything into it. Readers scan information from top to bottom so while she is out of commission she is here for now.

Hurry back and get healthy Sasha. People love you.

Needless to say, do not expect much in the way of updates until we know more about her condition and how she is.

I am sure she would love some supporting words. If you want to post them here, feel free to post them and we will forward them to her and/or make sure sure she knows they are here.

[dave45]

Dearest Sasha,
I don't know what kind of problems you are having but I wish you the best. I have been through rehab once, didn't do me much good at the time but I got a whole tool box full of tools. When I was ready I had them, I use the ones that worked and put the ones that didn't work back in the box for latter use. I wish you the best, just get well.
XOXO Dave

[charro]

Dear Sasha and dear members,

First of all I extend my best wishes to Sasha, health is the most precious thing we have and it is important to preserve. This has probably been a very difficult decision to make and Sasha showed great courage. Therefore we must all support.
For me, and I think for everyone here, Sasha is a young woman before being an actress, She has feelings, joys and sorrows as we all and that is why we must respect and be patient with her.
The world is filled with selfishness, so for once we must be compassionate with someone we appreciate and we like.
I hope to return very soon her beautiful smile, take good care of yourself Sasha, we'll miss you but we will always be there for you. ..

We love you

[Torp]

One day at a time - kiddo, One day at a Time!

You've already taken the 1st major step - Take Care and we will be here in your VNA Support Corner when u need a shoulder to lean on.

[Steinar]

So sorry to hear about the difficulties you are going through Sasha. I wish you all the best! Just remember we will be here when you come back and we do love you!

[bigt208]

Sasha,
Best Wishes Babe.
Good to see your doing what you think you need to at this time. Hope to see you back here healthy and feeling better.

Tom.

[Benny25]

It takes great courage to admit we have a problem and do something positive to correct it. I wish you all the best in this time Sasha. You know that we are all pulling for you. Love you girl and we'll see you in a bit.

[WalterB]

You know I'm here for you, girl. PM when you like, if you want to talk, call again, you do your thing and come back to us the same old fun and happy and lively person we know and love.

[AussieSteve]

Sasha
Get Well Soon, we all want to see you back here when you're feeling up to it; look after yourself sweetie! Kisses

[Anthony_JK]

Sasha:

Just do what you have to do to get everything straight. We'll be here for you, always.


Anthony

[stickyvicky]

It does explain a lot, but like I told Sasha, all is forgiven. Admitting you have a problem is the first step and the hardest step. I know how she feels, I've been there. A lot of us have. I will let you guys know when we hear anything more.

[Sasha Sparks]

Hello everyone, and THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart for the well wishes!
Yes, it's true, I have had a love/hate with alcohol for some time now....I thought I had it under control but it was the other way around. I am so sorry if I let anyone down. But I have been sober for 7 days now and I can honestly say that I have never felt more peaceful, hopeful, and happy than I have in these last few days!!!!!! I FEEL BRAND NEW!!!!
I guess it started getting bad back in Dec...then the crap that went down in Vegas in Jan...then as soon as I get home more drama...then the death of a family member...then this guy I had been dating (the one that caused the sex injury, lol) dumped me the night before my b-day party, and publicly at that. I had REALLY strong feelings for him, feelings I had not ever had. That was the last straw and I just couldn't deal anymore...plus this whole time (since Dec.) I had been drinking like a fish anyway, which made everything worse, but sometimes you don't see that when your down in it....especially when you have convinced yourself that your just partying like everyone else...umm, no, I don't think most people "party" with vodka at 10am...but that's just a little hair of the dog for the hangover, right?...see how easily an alcoholic brain can twist things!?
I am going to write a blog tonight about this whole ordeal, trust me, there is a lot to say! Some good, some bad but all real. I am just SOOOOO thankful to my friends who came over here last Saturday morning and drug my ass to detox....words can't describe how appreciative I am because I was no longer sinking, I think I had just about sunk. A girl I had never met before in my life and 3 of her AA buddies came to my rescue and took me to the hospital. I will explain it all in my blog!!!!
But I will also say that I am now on depakote and thorazine which is helping a lot, and I signed up for an intensive outpatient program yesterday!
I LOVE YOU GUYS, (for those that have) THANKS FOR HANGING IN THERE WITH ME!!!!

BTW....I did a shoot with Kobe this morning, I will post some preview pics asap!

[kelaniUK]

Sasha,

you are so brave hun to reveal your issues. I applaud your total honesty and admire your guts in dealing with this issue.

I also wish you a safe and steady recovery hun. I guess we all deal with stuff in different ways, there are somedays i wish that when i go to bed at night that i didnt wake up the following morning babe.

I guess we all have times when everything build's up and we do or say things we regret, but it's how you deal with these issues which can make you a stronger person Sasha?.

you take care babes (this is my 1st post for ages, but i think it was worthwhile - for a change lol!).

kelani xxxx

[John_fromNY]

Hello everyone, and THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart for the well wishes!
Yes, it's true, I have had a love/hate with alcohol for some time now....I thought I had it under control but it was the other way around. I am so sorry if I let anyone down. But I have been sober for 7 days now and I can honestly say that I have never felt more peaceful, hopeful, and happy than I have in these last few days!!!!!! I FEEL BRAND NEW!!!!
I guess it started getting bad back in Dec...then the crap that went down in Vegas in Jan...then as soon as I get home more drama...then the death of a family member...then this guy I had been dating (the one that caused the sex injury, lol) dumped me the night before my b-day party, and publicly at that. I had REALLY strong feelings for him, feelings I had not ever had. That was the last straw and I just couldn't deal anymore...plus this whole time (since Dec.) I had been drinking like a fish anyway, which made everything worse, but sometimes you don't see that when your down in it....especially when you have convinced yourself that your just partying like everyone else...umm, no, I don't think most people "party" with vodka at 10am...but that's just a little hair of the dog for the hangover, right?...see how easily an alcoholic brain can twist things!?
I am going to write a blog tonight about this whole ordeal, trust me, there is a lot to say! Some good, some bad but all real. I am just SOOOOO thankful to my friends who came over here last Saturday morning and drug my ass to detox....words can't describe how appreciative I am because I was no longer sinking, I think I had just about sunk. A girl I had never met before in my life and 3 of her AA buddies came to my rescue and took me to the hospital. I will explain it all in my blog!!!!
But I will also say that I am now on depakote and thorazine which is helping a lot, and I signed up for an intensive outpatient program yesterday!
I LOVE YOU GUYS, (for those that have) THANKS FOR HANGING IN THERE WITH ME!!!!

BTW....I did a shoot with Kobe this morning, I will post some preview pics asap!

I saw this the last few days but I was waiting for you to respond. You did. So I can now comment. Congratulations Sasha for being clean and sober the seven days!! That, in itself, took great courage. There are a few of us here who know how you are feeling. It will take time. Keep it in the moment, one day at a time. Please learn the serenity prayer and try to make the ninety in ninety. Don't compare but identify with the speakers and the people sharing. If you can keep an open mind to it, then that will help you greatly. Especially the Higher Power concept. Take that idea slow. Your Higher Power will guide you through it all. Get connected to a homegroup one that is close to your home, and get a commitment, like being the greeter as that will help you to meet people. Or go to the extreme in making coffee, setting up chairs etc. There are many types of AA meetings - beginners meetings are the most important right now. As well as step meetings too. Trust and friendship will come back to you eventually. Once you're comfortable then you can find a person who can sponsor you. That's a person who you are very comfortable with who can take you through the steps of the program of AA. We are all here to help one another. The telephone is very important as well, it will help you to open up and get trust back. Taking your medicaton and seeing your therapist will also help. If you are depressed, talk about it. You will go through the emotional wringer in the next ninety days. Feelings of guilt, remorse, anger, bitterness, anxiety, and depression will come your way. Writing about it in a journal helped me. Eventually you will be told to write a gratitude list. It will keep you clean and sober. Waking everyday, with remembering what you did the night before will keep you grateful. As for me, I wouldn't wish relapse on anyone. I ended up going to NA meetings too. Regardless of your addictions; alcohol or drugs, it's hell out there. Just keep it in the moment for now... Remember what's written on your 24 hour coin: To One's Self Be True.

[Sunny Lane]

Wow. I just saw this. Best of wishes and kisses Sasha. We are behind you :)

[BigDaddy]

Hi Sasha. I was very happy to see you drop in on Shandas show today. I am glad to see your feeling better and getting back to normal. ( What ever that is for any of us. :) ).

BigDaddy,

(Don't tell Shanda I'm cheatin on her with you, but you know what they say...
"Sticks and Stones may break my bones,.. But Whips and Chains Excite Me" )

[Sasha Sparks]

Thank you thank you thank you everyone!!!!!!!!!! I don't have a lot of time to write at the moment but I will come back, just wanted to share this really quick.....
After signing up up Friday I have my first outpatient app. today, and look at my horoscope for today! WOW!!!!!! WORD!

"Today marks a turning point in your year, as the New Moon falls in your sign. You have been preparing to make an important change in your life. Perhaps you've even had a few false starts in recent months. Now, however, there's no going back. Although it still may take another month to see significant progress, the intention you set now will be sufficient to get the ball rolling in the new direction."

[Torp]

A very good Omen indeed

One day at a time, One Day at a Time

[WalterB]

Good days and smiles ahead, Sasha. I still expect to meet you someday, and am so glad to hear you are/were able to realise it was time for help. You know we are here for you, and will stay so. You have nothing but up's in front of you. Onward and upward.

[Sasha Sparks]

OMG I am so fucking mad right now.....I couldn't get there!!! Some of you know about the situation with my car (it's "supposed" to be remedied in a "week or two") so I had to get a ride...it didn't happen. Everyone's either at work and the one person who lives close to me and offered to help, well I haven't heard from in several days. So I decide fuck this, I'm driving this fucked up car, I'm getting on 400 and I'm going. Fuck it, this is important to me and since I can't depend on anyone else I guess I will risk getting arrested to get the fucking treatment I need. (bad tag,insurance expired last month, won't go into 4th gear and now the drivers side door won't stay closed so you have to hold it while fucking driving)
So I get lost. I scribbled the directions on a piece of paper because the person who "offered" to help also has my GPS cord that I have been asking for for at least a month now.
I basically drove around in traffic in a fucked up car for 3 hours and got nothing accomplished. Except almost half a tank of gas wasted and my nerves on edge for fear of being arrested.
This is when I would normally drink....but I'm not. I'm going to walk Ziggy and paint....
The app. will be rescheduled.
I need a new car, I am sick of fucking with this one, it won't even pass emissions to get a new tag to begin with and it will probably cost more to fix it than it's worth. But as I said, this will hopefully be remedied next week. (ot two) Something's gotta give, I have 4 days a week to be out and about for this program!!!!!
I have to look at the horoscope again...it said I was on the right path and I am. I tried. Really hard. It will work out, this is just another test but I am sick of taking them.