Alright, kids are fed, where were we? Okay, so we go to the hotel. I am a little pensive, there are six couples and we have never done group, not on any level. But, I talk to the wife and she seems okay, and as long as shes okay and I at least put on an okay face she will continue to be okay. So, we march on. Things start out slow, just kind of having a drink or two, then a few of the girls get into a tub to "warm up." That goes on for about a half hour, then everyone moves into one of the rooms in this suite. Now, I find out later that when Amanda and Scott made the move to go into the room and grabbed our hands that they meant for it be only us but that's not what happened, the whole pack came along.
An eye opening experience to be sure, but outside of the occasional squirting action that I am just not used too it was really pretty mellow. I did a lot of observing, specifically making sure my wife was okay (she was, she was basically the knew girl in town and very much the flavor of the night) and observing Amanda. I joined in quite a bit as well, but I probably got the most pleasure out of just watching my wife and Amanda. Amanda is incredible, watching her confidence and sexy aura as she works a room is just an absolute turn on for me. Too be honest I don't think that anything that happened in particular is all that different from any group porno scene any of us have ever seen, it was just real life. The interesting part if that my wife and I were completely comfortable with anything and everything and fun was had by all. Now, here is where it takes a different turn....
The night is basically over. Everyone is tired, Amanda is done, my wife is done, everyone is done, and Amanda and I are in a room just talking by ourselves, about how great the night went, how glad we are that we all met and how great it is that we all feel so comfortable, and before you know it we are kissing, and then we are fucking. Except it wasn't normal swinger fucking, very intimate, very close, slow, looking into each others eyes, etc.....looking back it was as close as you could get to making love under the circumstances. Just completely out of the blue, and unexpected experience, and when it was over we all said our goodbyes and promised that yes, we would be there at there house party in 20 days. Absolutely.
Too be blunt I was really messed up about it. That experience was so deep and so intense that I just couldn't get it out of my head, and I actually reached out to Vicky about a week later to ask for her advice, and do you know what she said? Exactly what she should say...run. As fast as you can, just run. This is not what swinging is supposed to be. What did I do? The opposite. The exact opposite. 20 days goes by and party rolls around...
And that connection is still fucking there!!! It's there immediately as we kiss!! FUUUUUUCCCCKKK!!! Party pgets into full "swing" and Amanda is doing her thing but not with me. She consistently throughout the night would come back to me and say "Are you saving some? Don't forget you're dessert." It was kind of cute and sexy and hot and all kinds of things all rolled into one. Party starts winding down and I am in fact dessert. My wife and I go up to Amanda and Scotts room and we close the door, its about 12 AM at this point. The play starts the 4 of us, all on the same bed, that lasts about 20 minutes and Amanda and I go to a different room, and proceed to do the same thing we did at the hotel. Can I say again...
FUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKK!!!!
6 HOURS LATER ...after all kinds of talking and getting to know each other and just the sweatiest sex session I have ever had, we finally go to sleep and I am absolutely 100% hooked on this girl. Just hooked, and maybe even head over heel at this point I just can't say for sure, all I know is whatever this is its intense as anything I have ever experienced. Just an unbelievable connection and we have so much in common and the feeling is...surreal. Unreal. I feel like I already know her and whats more we act like it, the comfort level is just off the charts. If I was fucked up after that first night you can imagine how I felt after that night. So, morning comes and we leave, and its back to normal life.
Now, keep in mind we live an hour from them so seeing them on a regular basis is just not an option but we make a plan too see them again in about 3 weeks. Amanda and I are now texting each other regularly, and my wife and Scott are doing the same. We all get along fabulously, and 5 days goes by and 3 weeks is just gonna be way to long for Amanda so we set up a meet for a late Friday night after my wife gets off of work. We make the drive that Friday and I am just a ball of nerves- what if this is all in my head? Exactly what the fuck is going on, why is this woman living in my head right now? Is this time going to be the same as last time? What if it's not? God I want it to be!! Just all kinds of shit, and guess what?
It was exactly the same and more. The connection and the little thing we are building between Amanda and I, and really the 4 of us is 100% out of this world. Another marathon night of sex....too give you and idea of how much action I am getting between these sessions and the amount of sex I am getting from my wife as well when we met 79 days ago I was at 230, by this point I am probably at about 220 or so and I am now down to 200, and I haven't worked out in months. Suffice to say that I am pushing myself at every turn, at this point in this whole thing I am basically maintaining a girlfriend (we are actually at this point calling it girlfriend and boyfriend) and a wife. Most days I go till I pass out.
So, everyone is happy, why not push the envelope? Scott and I talk and we decide to set up a swap night that they don't know about. None of us have ever done this, gonna meet up at a restaurant and then hand the girls overnight bags and say "Go have fun with him baby!" Now, we tried to keep this secret but they ended up figuring it out...at least the part about us meeting up. They had no idea that we were throwing in the swap twist, and that was one of the most fun things ever. The expression on the girls face when we told them was priceless. They were down, so off we go.
Honestly that night deserves its own long ass story, just an incredible night. Suffice to say that everyone has a great time, Amanda and I take things even farther (unprotected- her reasoning "I should be able to fuck my boyfriend without a condom") and we also decide that when we meet the other two in the morning we need to approach them and talk to them about making this an open relationship. Because of everyones weird schedules we need to make it okay that if any of the "couples" have some free time, we should be able to take advantage of it, no jealousy, no keeping score, just take advantage of the time we can free up as much as we can. Somewhere in there someone mentioned that we should be exclusive, which at this point we are all doing just havent said it out loud. To my surprise....
THEY GO FOR IT!! and,to Amanda and I's great pleasure, at breakfast the next morning they are doing what we do. Hand in hand. Stroking hair. Getting close. At this point we are so deep that it's imperative that they follow suit or in our minds we can't keep going. But, here we are and they are!! They so are!! So, schedules are looked at and Amanda and I are up first for a date night, not all that far away.
I am this point just madly in love with this girl but not really struggling with it as much as you would think. I have always felt that one could love more than one, specifically me, I am a multi-tasker at heart and love being busy, and it kind of plays into my strengths. Where I am struggling is I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO FALL IN LOVE WITH THIS GIRL. Thats game over in this game, it just is. So, I just tell myself that it's okay that I love her, that I will be okay, that it will be okay, and hell maybe she even loves me and she can't say it either. Who knows? I do know one thing.... I still love my wife (We will call her Jennifer) very much and that isn't going anywhere. So, this love that I feel for this girl will just have to fit.
Our first separate date night rolls around, she arrives at the hotel and right away I know something is wrong, something is on her mind. She sits me down and basically tells me so, and then proceeds to tell me that she loves me without telling me. It was really cute and kind of heartbreaking to watch her dance around the subject, but she is telling me that she hasn't felt this way since her husband, and we talk about how it's okay and that we both believe you can love more than one and remember, this is our thing, our rules. (We say that a lot) We just can't say THAT. Can we? I can't stand it, so word for word...I say....
"In the interest of continuing to be fearless in the this relationship I can tell you without a doubt that I am head over heel s in love with you." Then I held my breath and waited, because guess what? This may be over. Right now. She said...
"Why did you say that?" but her tone and eyes belied the words, and you could see the fear just melt. She was so afraid that I would not be able to face it or reciprocate, she was terrified. Maybe one of the coolest moments ever. She of course said I love you as well, alot, and we had another amazing night. The next morning we of course told our spouses exactly what happened. Mines reaction was this: "I could have told you you were in love with her," and guess what....she is on the same road with Scott. This is starting to get really interesting. Really, really interesting. What are the chances? What are the chances that we all meet and all connect like this? Amanda and I talk about that alot and it's got to be astronomical but we are all open to trying to work together to make these relationships work, help them to grow, baby them. Truthfully its actually been quite easy, so easy in fact...after a few more date nights for all of us.....
After much discussion,we decide to go it as a family in one big house. After doing a few family days where the kids all meet (those went perfect) we set a date for move in. That was just this past Wednesday. The house is still a mess in some spots.We are all tired. I am lucky in that I have a month off of work right now but everyone else is still working through all of this. So far, so good though. So far so really fucking good. There is a certain sense of satisfaction and peace that I have every morning knowing that everything I care most about is under one roof. Just an absolute sense of peace, and being able to see my two favorite girls every day and kiss them and hug them and love them is just priceless.
Look, we know that on some level this is just pure craziness. Most people will not get this this at all and most would never even dream of attempting it, but this is something my wife and I have talked about for the longest time, if we could find the right people how awesome would it be?? It's not going to come without sacrifice- hell, my mom has said she will never talk to me again. Pretty brutal really, and that day was probably one of the worst of my life, but what am I to do? I feel how I feel and I want the life that I want. We will have to know when to tone it down and know when it's okay to be "us" and that's not always fun. It's hard to be involved with something that you think is so amazing but you can't share it, really hard. The number one thing we said right off the bat is no matter what, if something is bothering any of us say that shit out loud, to the group if its about the group or to the supposed offender because in this life there is no room for things to fester and the time we have together should be about love and fun. All love and fun. We have said that we will approach it as a marriage, both between the "opposite" couples but also the marriage of the 4 of us is its own dichotomy as well and needs to be maintained. So many angles, so many challenges. I can't wait to see what the future holds. I just know that if I get to experience it surrounded by these two amazing women and my new brother in crime, I will have a life that would be the envy of many if they only fucking knew.
So, thats the story. Like I said before I will answer any and all questions and I will also post things that I find interesting about the situation in this thread. I can't imagine that there will not be some pretty juicy stuff pretty quick.
into the fray. But I'm willing to bet you won't like what I have to say, either.
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