Getting screwed and not in the naughty way

[Byron43]

I have come under some rough times at work again and in life,and it has taken it's toll on me. I worked hard to erase a problem that occurred recently and just yesterday,it came up again. I cannot afford this type of mistake to cost me my job,when it was something I didn't do. It has to deal with the cash registers. I had to work off my problem for 20 shifts to make sure that I had a balanced drawer at the end of the shift. I find out last night,that my drawer was short 20 dollars,then got down to 17,after a couple more was found. That's still not good. I can't afford to go through this again. I worked my ass off for this,and I do not want to get fired for this,because if it happens a 3rd time,I'm done. One time was enough. I can't deal with another repeat and making it look like I can't be trusted at the registers,because it appears that I'm taking money,which I'm not doing and would never do there. I have too much integrity,to do something like that,that would cost me my job. This has taken a toll on my sanity,and I can't deal with things right now. I've also made bad decisions that I have regretted and have cost me financially as well. I'm not appearing on cams or Tweeting or Facebook for some time until I can get over this. I know I've posted about going away before on here,bu I have to go away again from here. I won't be on here to see any responses that are posted. I do appreciate you looking out for me,and I will be thankful for friends like that. But for now,this is something I have to do on my own. Thanks for listening.

[WalterB]

Well, you'll see this sooner or later, so I'll comment.

I'm sure you'll agree that a cash register needs to be right. I've never worked a register, so don't know the inherent issues. But it just makes sense that you have to be very attentive to what you are doing. I can't count the number of times a cashier has given me too much change. Yes, I give it back, even if it's only a nickel, but I know I am in a small minority. Most people don't even count their change, and too many that do will quick rush out if they see an overage. And, yes, it is theft.

I watched a girl a few days ago give a person change for a $10 when he submitted a $20. You have to hope it is accidental. But the customer caught it and called her on it. That is the reason you will see a cashier put the offered bill above the drawer until they have counted out the change. But, even then, many times I think their mind is somewhere else.

Cash registers that calculate the correct change are, to me, a pathetic excuse for the lack of a proper education. But, in todays world, they are very helpful and should eliminate most cases of over/under.

All I can say, Byron, is to keep your mind on what you're doing and concentrate. Actually count the numbers in your mind when you're getting change. Personally, I count up. For example, if I'm given a $10 and the bill is $5.62, the change is $4.38. I start at $5.62. 3¢ = "$5.63, 64, 65, a dime = $5.75, a quarter = $6, and 4 ones = 7, 8, 9, 10.Then I would count it that way into the hand of the customer. But everyone has their own manner. The point is you have to concentrate on what you're doing.

I know that, at least in some places, it is against the law to withhold shortages from an employees paycheck. But, it may not be everywhere. Call the non-emergency police number and ask them. I think it should be against the law everywhere. But, even so, I'm sure that you understand that a company has to protect it's assets. So that applies everywhere. Screw up too much, and they may let you go. It's happened to me, and I'm guessing many of us.

All I can say is keep the faith. Concentrate and do your best. That's all any of us can do.

[stickyvicky]

wow Byron that' nuts, I know you are an honest person and it's not you. Is someone else around you at work? Could someone be swiping something when you are not looking. Do they have cameras? That really sucks babe, I hope you work it out, but I don't understand what it has to do with us here? Why would you leave us because of it? We could help you feel better no? Why would you have to go away from here to work it out?

[carl goldfinger]

wow Byron that' nuts, I know you are an honest person and it's not you. Is someone else around you at work? Could someone be swiping something when you are not looking. Do they have cameras? That really sucks babe, I hope you work it out, but I don't understand what it has to do with us here? Why would you leave us because of it? We could help you feel better no? Why would you have to go away from here to work it out?

What it has to do with us here?
Everyone has a weak point inside, where he/she can be touched or offended, easily.
A hard bone can manage the hardest work, like a fire fighter, a paramedic or a cop when they arrive at an accident where people are lying puzzled in pieces... but they can stand it.
In other situations they are weak when they find an animal dieing away after an accident and begin to cry!?
I have seen this & was wondering a lot.
Everyone has such a weak point! Might be a dead deer or $20 missing in the cash drawer.
It touches deep inside & it lets you feel uncertain.
Here in the VNA we share friendship, fun & our sexuality.
It's a place of intimithy, a place where you are touchable... because you are here with your inner gates opened up.
If you already feel very uncertain because something or somebody touched your integrity or your inside, a simple missunderstanding or just one bad word during the chat in a cam show can waste your feelings for days or weeks.
I already had experienced that several times.
It blocks my sexuality.
Not in a physical way (you know, I'm Carl the machine...lol), but my mood for it... oh, that sucks a lot.

Byron, don't become desperate... its just a small amount of money.
Get some distance. Look out with open eyes (may be somebody got long fingers) and optimize the methodes to manage your work, like Walt said.
A USB pencil camara is a good idea if your company/boss don't has one, like Vicky said.
Transform your sadness into anger & try to fight harder... this helped me most times ("this is not fair!..... agrrrrrr")
& come back when you feel better... the VNA is THE nice place to be...

Yours

Carl

[Byron45]

Carl,you pretty much hit the nail on the head. Being as hurt and open as I was,I didn't want to bring anyone else down to my level and have them be affected. One thing said wrong,could've set me off and I don't want that to happen here. Things have already been strained between me and my sister and I regret ever posting my feelings online. Even though I needed help,sometimes the wrong words come out,and it's all someone can take. Things at the job are safe now,my boss understood the situation and there was no reason for me to freak out like I did. I just exaggerated things to such a degree,that I played the worst case scenario,when there wasn't even one,to begin with.

I am really,really fucked in the head,if something like that came from me. And I seriously need my head examined,because I clearly have some screws loose up there. I don't know what else to say,and I don't know what people are going to think of me after this. But the damage has already been done. If I lose some of you on here,I am truly sorry for my actions and words. This is getting to be a problem for me. I've had to start over with my posts again on here,and maybe a fresh start is what's needed for me.

I fear I have lost touch with Carmen,but I can't be sure. I haven't been in contact with her since the last time I emailed her. Maybe she's been busy and hasn't been able to catch up. She has been a really good friend to me and helped me out in dark times. The last thing I want to lose is what I have worked so hard to maintain with her,is her friendship. I hope I'm wrong. I'll be working tomorrow evening and will miss seeing her show. If someone could please pass along how I'm doing to her and let her know I'm working on getting help,to ease her worries,I would appreciate it.

So much has gone down,and it has taught me a painful lesson. Something I've needed to learn and work on. Never push away the ones who care about you the most. They are the ones who give a shit about you and will look out for you. The ones that don't,never really cared in the first place. Friends can be replaced,but family is forever. And you never fuck family,as my dad has put it.

[wshandcock]

Hey Byron

Glad you thought it out and came back . Give yourself a break we all go through shit. Remeber it not the fuck/up or the shit life throws at us that define us its how we responded to them that lets the world know who we are .Having met you I know what a good and warm person you are just let that carry the day

All my Best

Michael

[hotjulie]

Hi Byron, I understand where your coming from, but from my experience in the VNA no ones gonna hold anything against you. It wasn't long ago that I was in a lot of trouble, I finally wrote about it and I really expected the worst. I believed in my mind that Vicky would ask me to leave, but you know what everyone supported me right through. Even when I walked away from the VNA, friends and most of my family. I really thought I needed to stay away to think things over. I finally agreed to see a friend of mine and she handed me an envelope from so many friends here all supporting me and wishing me the best. I looked at her and what is all this, and she said your missed. I was gone for months and when I finally came back I was welcomed with open arms. I never realized how much I was loved here, and how much I loved to be here. It all starts with Vicky, she has such a big heart and every member of the VNA is so special and sweet.

[Byron45]

Thanks Julie,your post really meant a lot to me. I'm glad that you understood where I was coming from and not to think the worst of anything. This is the thing about the VNA,that has been the main reason I've stayed as long as I have. Aside from the main ladies like Carmen,Sunny,Francesca,Vicky,Julia Ann,Angelina,Shanda,Bobbi,Puma,Charlee,Gabby,Sara,Siri. I have made real friends here that look out for me and my best interests. Even when I stepped away twice and rejoined,it was the friendships and being welcomed back that made a big difference.

I'm very grateful to have known a lot of people,and even though I may not know you well enough Julie,I still consider you a friend,regardless. I agree that Vicky has the kindest heart and has given me second and third chances to come back here,and nothing was held against me. I couldn't have found a better place to know people and be among friends than the VNA. Even though I may be the closest with Carmen,Sunny and Francesca,I still have to thank Vicky,because this all started with her,and I will always be grateful to her for everything here.

[Byron45]

Now I just got a 5 day notice from my landlord to come up with other half of my rent or I'm gone. I wrote him a note and paid the first half of the rent and told him that I would have the other half by next Friday,which is when I get paid again. I don't know what to do and my family would unable to help me at this point. Trying not to freak out too much,but I don't know what else to do.